[si]karlitoh

Lately I've been playing Heroes of Newerth like a drug addict who found a marijuana factory. For those who don't know Heroes of Newerth or HON, you control a hero and fight alongside and against players in an effort to defend your base against the enemy. Think of it as DotA on steroids if you play DotA or Digital Agawan Base if you don't play games at all. Safe to say that I've caused myself trouble by actually playing and being addicted to the game. I have around 3 cuts remaining on my MWF classes and 2 cuts for my TTH classes. Playing late means waking up late. Playing first means homework later. Curse thee good games!

But this entry is more about being the Top Gun or the Hard Carry or the "Magdadala" of the game. There are heroes in the game that we call "Hard Carry" which means that if their players play them right, they can open the game wide and win. They are silent first but in the late game they own you, they kill without mercy, they destroy like there is no tomorrow.

I used to be a hard carry character. I remember the days of my High School when I use Mortred to own the game after 20 minutes. "Hintay lang kayo mga tol, ako magdadala nito", I used to say to my friends. True enough, whether it was a one shot Laguna Blade or a 3 hit team wipe, I carried the game like a pro. Lately though I've lost my touch and its probably of me getting older as a person. I can't devote that much time in my games like I used to. There are factors now, TA, friends, Somba, School, Extra-curricular activities that have equal weight on my life now. I forgot how fast my fingers were or how fast I assessed situations. I used to strike with chaos, now I can only cause so much when I dive in the battlefield.

I am quite sad about it. I want to go back to the gaming days but family calls. I am graduating and I have to enter the boring corporate world in order to help my family. I have dreams to accomplish too.

Do I then, let go gaming? I have this mentality, either I be the best or be nothing at all (when it comes to gaming). So if I don't become the best in HoN, then I'd rather not play at all.

This is an emo entry I guess, for the love of the Goddess of Gaming that seemed to have forgotten her one devoted disciple. How do I earn your love back O' Great One?

I have probably 4 days left before I start getting used to school. I'll slay 100 enemies for you!

A Merry Christmas to all the people out there. Be careful of the chilly winds, you might just look for some(thing/one) to warm you up.

A smashing time to be a Manlangit is precisely this day. We celebrate with loads of food, relatives coming over and eating together and watching T.V, drinking wine and opening presents. Even though I'm too old to open gifts, I did receive a few "envelopes" if you know what I mean. Dragon Age Origins here we come!

Iba talaga ang Pinoy! Daanan man lang ng Bagyo (Ondoy), sabugan man ng bulkan (Mayon) o ang kalagim-lagim na trahedya (Maguindanao Massacre), naghahanap pa rin ng paraan na magsamasama at magsaya. That is the essence of the Filipino there that no matter what happens, we persevere. Mabuhay kayo mga kababayan ko, at dahil doon, manood kayo ng Walang Sugat! Best watched as a Pinoy!

Kilbasa, Litson, Carbonara, Ham, Cheese, Wine, Coke and Family. Iyan ang Noche Buena ko today. Even though I woke up late for it, because I got tired killing Nazi Zombies, I had extreme fun!

And to Ms. Walang Sugat, best thing that happened to me before Xmas! That my friends, is God's Christmas gift! (it's really shallow stuff but what the heck. Include it in the list!)

Again to all the living, dead, undead people out there. Because Zombies too celebrate, Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year friends!

Thank you God for giving such a wonderful Xmas gift! I owe you for this! I'll be like the best!

Do not settle for Twitter.

ITS WAR MACHINE!

An oxymoron of sorts, There Is No Show ended tonight. The role of getting people to watch was more difficult than me getting a girlfriend and that's a serious statement. If it wasn't for Ma'am Benilda and Missy Maramara's recommendation to their classes, I think I'll only fit at least half of what we were able to actually gather. So for that, I thank them. Also, the task of promoting the play which was the burden carried by Jellie was done extremely well. People were coming in (thats what she said) like crazy, wanting to watch the best of the best. For that, I owe her my love, her favourite food (which is NOT the bottom part of a cooked rice or the brownish bitter ones) and my thanks.

And so we played our part on this one. I personally believe I could've done better in getting audiences, cutting Glorie some slack by making detailed marketing reports (which for me, jinxes the number of audiences) and being a good figure head. That's too late now, its over but I'm glad it is. And so, nothing ends.

Now it boils down to me being a good groupmate for my SOMBA friends, my LS125 co-workers and being a good student for my parents. But I believe I can do a mach 5 on this one. I think there's so much potential in the character of Mattheo Manlangit. True he's overweight, he's lazy, he spends a lot and he doesn't study but see here, those things can be remedied. What if February comes and Mattheo is in better shape, active, thrifty and smart in spending his cash and became a bright mind in both academic and world literature? There is so much I can do now, to be who I want to be, to be what I want to be (a spy... I kid). And so, the life of being nothing ends.

I'm not looking for one at all and that comforts me, makes me feel free in some ways. Jopie said it is a good thing and I feel it is. In some way, a certain 600 pound metal ball and chain attached to me got released. True that it might be the start of boring days, but things get boring to in the future, things will appear interesting.

I loved 1 girl in college and for that I thank her for making it colorful. I loved one girl in High School and for that I thank her for making it memorable. But we move on. Will never be forgotten I say but I'm going to get ready for the next one, who knows, 3rd time's the charm. (I don't know who the next one is, but hey, gotta be prepared).

Nothing ends.